Goodbye hairy ambition

Nice hairstyles...

Crazy hairstyles...

Colours..... Twists.. Curls.....

Afro!

Einstein!

Today I made a painful sacrifice, but feel no need to boast about it.
However let me mourn.

One distraction removed!

Just follow lah

Friend go, friend invites, go loh... For fun mah....

A couple of friends were on their way to a dance audition.

.....
"Joel ah, go for the audition lah!"

....
"Erm, I don't dance"
"Hmmmmm... ok loh(so bored to be at home anyway)"


Oh I didn't expect the whole process to be nearly 4 hours! I was suffering right from the beginning, all the way through..

Friend go, friends go, just follow loh. Hahaha, suffer ah....
Well, no harm done so it's ok. At least I had a chance to sweat, so glad to have endured the whole audition. Was so so feeling like quitting during the long over-and-over practices.


Anyway, going out to wait for bus soon. It will likely be a peaceful bus ride, expecting silence in it regardless of the number of passengers aboard.

No more

Before: No stuff to do almost all the time.
Now: Not much free time to do stuff.

Before: Managing a farm and a town daily on Facebook apps.
Now: Never touched those games since the diploma course started.

Before: Restless and rebellious most of the time in school.
Now: Willing and happy to be in school.

Before: Lived by daily aimlessly.
Now: Understand and know what to do.


When you have focus, your priorities change.

Final Moments

So I will be officially leaving, but what's the problem? Coming back again this weekend, Hahaha!!
It has been a great few weeks of preparation for college, planning, packing, etc.
And I am just so thankful to my family and friends, people who have shown tremendous support in my decision and choice of further studies. All the help in many practical ways, the encouragement, information, gifts and farewell parties, really touches me and I am just so so grateful!
If you are reading this, you know who you are, thank you very much.

Final Moments

Spending the first day of the week opening gifts and reading messages,

gonna spend the consecutive as a student of another for the first day.

Spending a few final hours sleeping on my bed in my home,

gonna spend tonight laying on a different bed in a different place.

Spending Malaysian Ringgit on meals with Kluang fellows,

gonna be spending Singapore Dollars eating alone.

Spending some final moments with few worries,

gonna need to be attentive and alert from now.

A bird should never remain in its nest forever,

there must always be a time to fly;

times may get tough, and surroundings harsh,

the bird that gives up might die

but those who trust shall soar the skies

for they were made for greater heights.

© Joel Yap

Finally

Four suns left to the seventh moon

finally a message from he

who left me in despair

finally, finally a word came

So eager was I

awaiting the letter

so frustrated at times

so patient altogether

Never once did I disturbed

never once have I approached

when finally the waiting paid off

at least what I thought

In the message only I learnt

that hear another I may never

Heart stopped pumping for a moment

seems I shall ever be forsaken

How many times do you wish my heart to be broken?!
O this heart, like shattered glass all over the ground...
and the pieces, swept away from your compound

© Joel Yap

Back on stage

Backed out from stage...
Backslid into shadows...
Backing down on ministry...

Stepping out from the backstage,
In action, back on stage


After so long and after so much, finally I attempt to do what I had anointing in doing, and I hope it will turn out well.

又怎样？

你敬佩老师，因此喜欢上课。
但是你上课的表现只显得出你没兴趣，喜欢又怎样？

老师帮助你很多，甚至太多太多，你很感谢。
但那又怎样？
你上课只会发呆，老师也拿你没办法，当没看到。

你早就知道向老师道谢最好的方法是把书读好，知道又怎样？

如今你要从新开始，老师还是那么照顾你。
你最好不要忘记。

对不起，谢谢您。