Double Kill!

I broke stuff in school today, twice- first in the Physics laboratory then Chemistry.
Why am I so careless?? No one in class has ever broken a single piece of glass except for me. And today is not the first day, I already broke a beaker during my first Chemistry practical. So I hold the record, three times in a row!
Hahaha....

Then a thought came to mind as I was daydreaming just as I always do, in school. The beakers that I broke did not lie on the ground forever, the floor was cleaned up and the glass fragments and shatters were picked up and swept away. There was someone to clean up the mess, be it myself- the culprit or other people. Somebody cared enough to help after the accident occurred. Should nothing be done at all and the pieces of glass were left all over the ground, someone could get hurt. When somebody gets hurt, the situation is now said to have become more complicated. Accident leading to accidents.

This is also quite true in life. When something bad happens to you and a friend comes along to help, when you screw up and someone is there to clean up the mess, when you have a need and the need is met, you feel safe and you can live freely because you don't have to worry too much. However, in contrast, when you do something wrong and no one wants to correct you, when you are in deep trouble and nobody gives a damn, when you are in situations that are so bad that you desperately do not know how to live in them and your closest ones forsake you, you become helpless. When you are left alone to fend for yourself because you are no longer of value as you probably were before. You wonder, "Since when did people become so hostile and ignorant?" You turn to loved ones but they turn away. You turn to them for help but they turn a deaf ear on you. You do not understand the way things are and why are the way things are are how the way things are.

In your desperation you try every method to make things better but you only end up in failure. Everytime you ask for something, rejection is what you get and hostility is what you face.
You pause and you breathe, and you start to think, "Surely something good still exist." You try to convince yourself that there is a glimpse of hope, but you find yourself in a dilemma. Everything is hopeless? Not everything is hopeless?

Don't give up? Or move on? Moving on sounds like giving up and giving in.
It is normal to have good days and bad days, everybody has to go through them and experience bad days too.

I am a bad person with much bad experiences experiencing my worst days so far in a bad condition, currently I am having a bad time.

Beakers were broken in the hands of a broken person.
Joel Yap