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Friday 30 September 2011

Prayer and perseverance

It gets difficult to pray when you are faced with disappointment time and time again. It never was easy too, when people aren't really standing with you. People who are skeptical, indifferent or afraid. Or perhaps more conservative.

It tends to feel hopeless, it doesn't look good. You are tempted to curse, complain, and give up thereafter. You feel angry, you see your frustrations and sometimes tears.

Deep inside, you believe anyway how this will eventually end. You just want to know how soon.
If you should ever have children, you want the best for them. Who wouldn't?
So you shall fervently pray. That your children as well as of those whom you care about, shall be able to grow up with good-quality education.
 

Sunday 25 September 2011

原来如此

我们都是同国人。跟我住,大家一起省钱。
你们原肯挤进来 目的只是要便宜?

看不见我的好意?不晓得我的痛楚?不理解我的宽容?
难道说,与我同住 真的这么不开心吗?

Thursday 15 September 2011

All the best

"All the best!"
"Hey, so-and-so, all the best!"
"Take care, all the best!"

Blah, blah, blah... Aku tak faham. I don't understand why some people use the phrase "all the best" without stating for what or in what. Worse still, they do so so often.

Bodoh, rite? I do not mean any offense though. But we better understand what we are speaking.

Sunday 4 September 2011

Realm of Tranquility

Find me, search high and low for me 
in the messy realm of tranquility. 
Seize me, take my mind-
off complete broken things 
from my imperfect past of happiness. 
Hold me closely 
watch me carefully. 
Take me down quickly
and cover me. 
Hide me 
from the quiet storms of memories. 
Keep me from shaking. 
Stop me from falling.
Find me 
from my messy realm of tranquility.

© Joel Yap

Friday 2 September 2011

A few of us got together

Mr. Chew, Mr. Kang and I were my best buddies back in secondary school. We went to a neighbourhood school. Mainstream, government-run, average and nothing much to shout about; though I must say few of the teachers from my school were(still are) rather highly sought after tutors in their various specialties. For example, I must say the best Physics teacher in Kluang at this moment of time was from my school. The best and most famous tutor for General Paper is also currently teaching in my school. Needless to say the best Additional Mathematics teacher, also from my school(and my church as well). In my opinion.

Now, what did I wanted to write about again? Okay, so Mr. Chew, Mr. Kang and I got together today thanks to our Hari Raya break. As usual, we had a good time catching up as well as talking about stupid things. Come on, boys will be boys. I don't expect us to talk about how China could break free from Communism, or how to lift off a rocket with 100% solar or renewable energy. Not that these are good or bad, or impossible. I love to spend time talking rubbish with these two people when we can get together once in a while, now that each of us have our own lives to live and studies to handle. However there is a balance. The last thing I want is for the three of us to end up in the police station for talking too loudly in public. Not that it will ever happen. There is a balance to keep, I believe. Between being stupid and being helpful. In the midst of rubbish talk for fellowship's sake, we often make sure we give each other a quick update about our lives, our struggles and problems.

Today we had fun looking back at our days in school together. Recalling names of teachers, schoolmates, classmates, etc. Reminding each other of the stuff we used to do- be it the stuff we enjoyed or otherwise. I remember a lot of rules. Rules were all over our student days. How to wear our uniform, how to keep an acceptable hairstyle, what not to bring to school, and the list just goes on and on. I remember how once Mr. Chew and my cell phones got confiscated since bringing cell phones into the school compound was banned back then. It is still, to my knowledge. I remember the teachers we had who behaved weirdly, those were the ones easily remembered. We remember the good ones as well as the not-so-good ones. And having gained insight and a certain amount of maturity, we now are able to appreciate our teachers accordingly. Yes, I admit there were times I resented a few teachers due to some unpleasant situations, perhaps; but now I understand that certain things did not happen the way I perceived them to. Similarly, a few of the teachers whom I used to dislike (were)are actually people worthy of my respect.

Secondary school- where there were more rules but less worries.

A few of us got together and I realise how much, through a short, two-and-a-half years, we have matured. Cheers to more and more years of maturity. And to our friendship too!
A few of us got together.