原来是卖鱼

我发觉到有个骨折的病人虽然没有别的健康问题，但老是在睡觉。所以我昨天傍晚鼓起勇气来 问他怎么整天都在睡，是不是因为晚上没办法休息好。

那病人便开始跟我说了好多话。我听到病人说他每天都在凌晨十二点起床，出去拿货 做买卖直到早上九点。这种生活已经过了几十年了，就算进了医院 也会半夜睡不着。但我非常好奇 谁会在连太阳都还没升起的时候去巴刹买衣服！是病人自己说半夜去拿衣 早上卖的。我们聊了大约五分钟我才发现他卖的是鱼 而不是衣。哈哈！

可能是他说话太快，或许是我听觉有问题。

Into the grey area

Not really crossing lines, more of like sticking my head out and risk facing possible disciplinary actions.

I am currently posted to an orthopaedic ward. It is just Day 2 and I feel like I have started this clinical posting walking along the grey.

One of the patients was just wheeled into the ward upon having undergone a shoulder surgery. Surprisingly he was awake and walking about as soon we got him changed and checked up. Another student nurse gave him his painkillers via injection, and he was advised to rest in bed as the medication might cause drowsiness. However the man insisted on walking albeit being warned not to. The staff were busy, everyone was doing their own thing and the nurse responsible for the patient who was just wheeled in instructed me to stay close to the man lest he suffered from a fall. And I did so, but he started walking towards the elevator! My patient wanted to go out for a walk. We even met his doctor on the way out. At that point of time I knew it was impossible to consult the staff nurse because her patient would have gone down and out by the time I ran back into the ward, even if I were to beg him to wait. I did not really bother asking the doctor as he would not wish to bear the responsibility had he agreed to let the patient get out of the ward this soon after surgery.

What were my choices, standing along 6 working elevators with a patient who was adamant on taking a walk outside? I decided to follow the man out despite knowing the fact that his intentions were probably for a cigarette break. So, there I was, walking a patient out of hospital grounds, to smoke, though the only smoke I inhaled was secondhand. He even took out his cigarette before stepping out of the hospital gates. Great, now I even got caught on security camera footage.

I do not regret doing what I did. What else could I have done? A fellow student nurse got the rest of my patients in the ward covered. The best chance I had of making sure the smoker patient did not fall, was to follow and stay close to him even though it meant stepping out of the hospital for a cigarette. Today, the patient is alert and walking well. He took his cigarette breaks without needing anyone to accompany him anymore. And I am getting to know him better through our conversations and my reading of his case file.

Today, a different patient asked me for a favour- to buy him lottery! He gave me a bunch of numbers and some cash. And I went to buy the 4D tickets as instructed(correctly, I hope!) after the end of my shift.

Clinical postings. New experiences, new challenges, some of them weird at times.

ISA?

Is the act all bad?

If I am not mistaken, it was enacted out of good intentions for the country. However, like any other power, it can be subject to abuse if authority falls into the wrong hands.

Now, we are no longer in danger of violence by whoever the ISA was meant to curb. Therefore the ISA ought to be repealed.

Yesterday I read in the newspapers about human traffickers being detained under ISA when the authorities could not find proof against their alleged activities.

Is the ISA still beneficial to the people? I understand that many are against the act as it, from certain perspectives, may seem very unfair. Anybody can be detained for sometimes ridiculous reasons as long as the home minister deems to be seditious.

The ISA seems very unpopular among many, however can it be put to good use? Is the act all bad?

Did Adam have a belly button?

You know, he is the first of mankind. Just thinking out loud here, wondering if Adam and Eve had belly buttons.

写华语

家里办丧事。 昨天爸爸给“白金” 的时候拜托我帮他写名字。

“六叔叶若虚”五个字，我只会写三个！太久没写华文字了，竟然忘了怎么写我自己父亲的名字。
 

:(

I think I might be puzzled and lost.
Not sure what the future holds, where to go from here, and how to get there.

My mind may be confused right not but the condition of my heart is no better.

So, what? This does not mean I should(can) vent frustrations out in written form, here on online space.

O come ye weary one, cast thy cares in the right place.