Experiment

Suddenly remembered!


What was I back then? A friend? A person to care for? Just another one to reach out to?
When caring for me takes more than what is usually given, did I become a burden to lay down?
Or was I Jonah on the wrong journey that you had to throw me over?

Was I a heavy load?
A pain in the ass?

Maybe an experiment gone wrong.

bye

It was a very nice Christmas week back here at home where my heart is! Even greater when some loved ones are around to spend it with together. Most of my pals are were back from college and their presence certainly made me glad.

Now it's time to say goodbye to some of those who are starting classes very soon. I had very good day today, especially on the sports field this evening.

Cried while driving home just now. Hate to say goodbye to loved ones!

Sigh, got to accept the harsh fact that every party has to end. And soon my turn to leave again will come.

Sentimental?? Hahaha...

I feel sad for a cousin who has to be on crutches in the near future. I feel her frustration and I cannot imagine the inconvenience she needs to go through. And I begin to empathize that she might probably be asking God(I would) why all these had to happen! Such frustration can be so hard to bear, yet I know that the God who allowed such things to take place is a God who loves. Besides that I also know this God who loves is the Almighty God who is bigger than any and every problem.

Cuz... Be strong!

Sleep

It's 2AM in the first morning after Christmas day. I feel like doing what I haven't been doing for the past week- sleep.

It has been unstopable eating for me since this short break started. And my main meals are usually supper and breakfast, so I haven't been sleeping well. Never got home before midnight yet getting up rather early the next day.

It's time for me to sleep more, as some of the Malaysian universities students leave town for a new semester. I'll miss my friends!

Umbrella

In a time the sun was shining

Umbrella in my hands;

My head in its shadows

of protection and comfort

Then came evening cool

when I still held on

while others required

my shade

But how could I endure that sight:

parasites stealing my prized possession?!

Of course, I fought.

For none was worthy

to snatch the treasure from me!

Fright, fatigue and faint

left me no choice

but let go.

Now into the snow;

I under the rain,

learn to face the storms

©Joel Yap

Finally exercised

Spent about an hour at the gym today after classes ended.

Finally got myself to jog again! But I couldn't last for more than half an hour. Ran and stopped, ran and stopped; tried cycling and went back to the treadmill. Never went on for more than half an hour at each trial.

There I realised how much willpower I have lost.

Time to exercise

That time has come long ago. I've been reminding myself the need to take a break from this sedentary lifestyle for 2 months already. It's officially Week 9 since the semester started and I do not recall performing any beneficial physical activities at all.

Not that I do not care about health, I do actually. I eat quite healthily, never too much fast food and fried snacks. However choosing not to eat is not enough, I am defeated by the laziness to get up and exercise properly.

Time to actually do something about this. It's holiday soon and this healthy diet would be soon forgotten.
Better hit the gym today after classes.

First time in 2 months, I will.

First prints

Emailed mommy some photos sometime during the week, of my family at my sister's 'Graduation Ceremony' from Canossian Convent a few weeks ago. Mom wanted the photographs developed, so I conveniently picked a few other random pictures that I had been taking, to let her send for printing. Never printed any photographs ever since we switched to digital cameras, thus I named the attachment in the email as "testing".

Results were good! Just that I do not yet understand why some of the photos have a time stamp at the bottom left corner which I neither expected nor want.

Around for the weekend and hope to catch up with people who are currently not taking any major examinations.
Wanna share the joy of my first prints!