Screaming in the head again

What do you do when you are so frustrated?
What do you do when you are so angry that people could barely come near you?
What do you do when all you want to do is to shout?
Like as if the world owes you something. the whole world... everyone, everything..

How do you cool down?
How can you possibly cool down instantly?
A word?
Just a touch?
Knowledge that someone cares for you? Or the persistence in believing that someone does even though everything says otherwise?


Fuming inside.

Screaming....

休息, Rest

休息是为了走更长远的路

Xing Ying posted this on her Facebook, I like this saying.

However today I thought more deeply about it, and considered the meaning and possible purposes of people saying it.

Rest can be a form of preparation for something, greater things require greater preparations.
It is important to rest before doing things. Not only that, rest is, to a certain point as important as food, or more important. To start a day well, one should acquire sufficient rest for it.

On the contrary, the saying above can also be used as an excuse for procrastination.
People who are lazy, like me, use it to comfort and deceive ourselves that we are resting to work.
Well, just being frank with myself here.


Rest belongs to those who work.
To rest, one should work to deserve it.
So, rest is to be earned.

And laziness is this, resting before even working.

I have been lazy, too lazy.

Screaming in the head

Ever felt how is it like to be screaming inside? Screaming.... AHHHH!!

Ever felt like your thoughts are running so wild you can neither get hold of them nor control them anymore?

Ever felt so helpless because you do not know what to do to get out of those depressing thoughts?

Ever felt so down you don't know how to get up anymore?

Ever felt so down that you get discouraged by the "height" of the position in which you are expected to rise up to?



What do you do?

Life

Living is such a chore. Life is a joke, really.


You wake up in the morning, brush teeth and get ready for the day. Actually getting ready is just to make sure that you do not give people you meet a bad impression of yourself. We get ready physically before we step out the door so we can hide what we do not want others to see. The embarrassing, ugly side.
And when we go to school, work, etc, we meet people. We put on different masks in different situations when we are with different people. We speak differently, walk differently, behave differently. At the end of the day we really get confused about what the true image behind those masks look like.
We try so hard to cover up what is inside of us that we our very own selves no longer know what has been and is inside.
When we realise that we no longer understand ourselves, we already have no time and will to do so because there is so much to do everyday, so many things to hide, so many tasks to complete, so much money to go after.

Life. It was created to be simple, but we have made it so complicated.
Nobody understands what really is, life, anymore.


What are we? What is life?

How many people know why are they living in this world? How many?

Life without purpose is life without meaning, and life without meaning is life without hope.



So you grow up to go to school to go to college to achieve something in your studies to set foot in society to work to earn money to settle down to start a family then send your children to school so that your children go to college so that they set foot in society to work so that they earn money to settle down and start families and they shall raise their children and send them to school and the cycle goes on and on.

So then, what is life if it isn't a joke?


And in the cycle above, you make friends not knowing how long will those friendships last, after which you realise you made more mistakes than you made friends.
You try to find yourself and get back to your senses but when you finally try hard enough, you discover that life is only but a joke, really.

Life is just a show, something for your Audience.

亏大本

Not every plan can be carried out as planned.

Not every investment will succeed.

People who expect are bound to face disappointment.

People who hope will one day be discouraged.

Those who win will one day lose.

Those who succeed will one day fail.

Losing a lot? Learn to let go.

Not so easy to do so? Of course.


So what makes it easier to let go? Forgiveness, perhaps...

Letting go is giving up? Not?


Learning Mathematics as two separate subjects might be a hint to me, to say, 算了!

Ridiculous (part 3)

After much reflecting, I just want to say that I am susceptible to mistakes.
So if there's anything not right with whatever I have written, feel free to say it out.

This teacher's blogging issue is somewhat similar to the controversy of teachers teaching differently in school and at tuition centres.

Anyway, I think Cikgu Razali is just being childish through the ways he increases his blog traffic.
My stand is clear, against the methods of attracting visitors which I personally believe to be a bit unethical.


He said that his blog is an example for other schools to follow.
That is ridiculous.


Again, if you think there is any misunderstandings on my side, do comment and I promise to receive it with an open mind.