urgh!

I dread working with people who do not understand the meaning of responsibility and showing no concern on what we(as a group) are working on.

I hate it when they do not know what they are doing and do not even find out.


Oh, some useless girls.....

and I wish not to elaborate any further.


sigh, but as I look at them, they look like images on my bathroom mirror.
I am no better...

Hello

In an old place, at a usual time

like back in the good old days;

In the same garments, wearing the same smile;

what I saw:

different altogether

I saw you with these dry eyes

a confused soul

a heart numbed

and as for mind, blank

The needles on my watch paused

they flew out, piercing my eyes

like rays from noonday sun

directed to make me move

My heart stopped with time

as sweat tries to clear the taste

of bitterness

The moment I saw your face

from an infinite distance too near

my mouth whispered to my ears:

"Calm waters are better than roaring waves"

I knew your mercy

when you turned away

I used to know
to be unkindness

You bear no blame

anymore

I wish to bear no disappointment

again

Hello,

you are safe from me

© Joel Yap

Carbon Chloride Called

The old Nokia rang

last night as I was

using a new Nokia

An unexpected phone call

purpose is warn

by Carbon Chloride

a friend for me worried

I was informed of a coming event

which I knew but knew not when

Someone was afraid

as unpredictable I could be

perhaps foresaw chemical activities

that might in my body

great commotion within

What good sight

and what good initiative

to be thinking for such as me

You remember me

thank you, friend

but reactions

are my own matters

worry not

© Joel Yap

4 hours

Yesterday I had work from 6.30 to 10.30 PM, and it was good. For one of the first times, there were very few customers. So it was nice to work last night, as a waiter having not much work to do. Haha...

Adding to the poor business, some machines in the kitchen broke down!
All of us who were working could really feel the difference in our various workloads.

Hmmm.... Business wasn't good, staff were happy.


Owners not happy when business is bad, but the workers not not happy...
Should workers feel happy?


Anyway I'm happy because it's one more night of working before going home after classes tomorrow!

Sulk

There's not much I can do

in fact, there's none

All I did was allowing self

open to torture

Your actions

your movements and pauses

everything you did

tormented me

Friendships toward others

while none be to me

only teddy bears

but I am Little Albert

you are unaware

you are blameless

Well you have your friends

you should

perhaps I can accept

I should

The Baby lasted 8 Days,

is it now time?

Good to cut off anyway

though the crying still remain.

© Joel Yap

Goodbye hairy ambition

Nice hairstyles...

Crazy hairstyles...

Colours..... Twists.. Curls.....

Afro!

Einstein!

Today I made a painful sacrifice, but feel no need to boast about it.
However let me mourn.

One distraction removed!

Just follow lah

Friend go, friend invites, go loh... For fun mah....

A couple of friends were on their way to a dance audition.

.....
"Joel ah, go for the audition lah!"

....
"Erm, I don't dance"
"Hmmmmm... ok loh(so bored to be at home anyway)"


Oh I didn't expect the whole process to be nearly 4 hours! I was suffering right from the beginning, all the way through..

Friend go, friends go, just follow loh. Hahaha, suffer ah....
Well, no harm done so it's ok. At least I had a chance to sweat, so glad to have endured the whole audition. Was so so feeling like quitting during the long over-and-over practices.


Anyway, going out to wait for bus soon. It will likely be a peaceful bus ride, expecting silence in it regardless of the number of passengers aboard.

No more

Before: No stuff to do almost all the time.
Now: Not much free time to do stuff.

Before: Managing a farm and a town daily on Facebook apps.
Now: Never touched those games since the diploma course started.

Before: Restless and rebellious most of the time in school.
Now: Willing and happy to be in school.

Before: Lived by daily aimlessly.
Now: Understand and know what to do.


When you have focus, your priorities change.