You see, You know yet You still love.

You see me, You know me and yet You still love me. I cannot understand. Even I am uncertain of how long I can stand looking at myself in the mirror before starting to feel sick and sorry.

You are capable of loving in such an incomprehensible manner; but how can I know what I am unable to understand?
 

羊儿别放弃

来临的路程好艰难，小羊不知能否顺利走完；
牧羊人啊，牧羊人！祢在哪里？
羊儿碰钉子了，跌跌撞撞，迷失方向。

天上的月亮，照亮地上路，希望这点光足以带领羊；
路边的小草长得高，当补充体力与精神的粮食。

前头的道路不好走，但羊儿 别放弃！

© Joel Yap

Alarm clocks

My life as a nursing student revolves around alarm clocks. The good news is, this life will not change when I am no longer a student.

So is this like a preparation to face the realities of doing shift work as a nurse? Working shifts can really affect your sleeping patterns. This week I started lying on the floor whenever I needed to wake up early the next morning. Really cannot afford to oversleep, therefore the need to set three alarms! Yes, three: my phone, iPod and the good old alarm clock; all placed near my head. This is Week 3 and I have never been late for work thus far. Besides sleep, this kind of work has an effect on social life too. It has been so frustrating for me trying to meet up with some friends, most of whom are nursing students as well.

Life, how can work not impact it? Now learning to make the best out of the spare time I can find.
I shall control my alarm clocks, not be controlled by them.

Carpet

My carpet is clean
until you check beneath!
Years of sweeping, of hiding,
dusts of fury and frustration
creep in during sleepless nights.

No one can peak into it
for I somehow fiercely guard it;
people stepped and people passed,
but none could explore the floor.

My carpet is clean
you may not check beneath!
I would not allow it
perhaps until I find strength
to do some serious cleansing.

© Joel Yap