Can I love you? 
Will you let me? 
 
  
  

Just the way you are

Why am I thinking about what songs to sing for my wedding dinner, now when I'm so single?!
Haha.. Anyway, have been thinking about marriage lately. Maybe it is because I just did a wedding photo shoot. Processing and organising so many pictures somehow make you think about your own wedding one day.
How will it be? Who will it be?
 

More feelings

Having been living alone and knowing that the lone lifestyle will last a long time, I trust it is inevitable that people in such situations will start feeling lonely, since they live alone. Haha..
Yes, there are friends. But I hope all of us know how difficult it is to find real friends, true friends especially in today's society. Not trying to be pessimistic but this is the truth. Man has always been independable, from our forefathers', their forefathers' times till now and forever.

Family rocks. It is good to be with your family. Man is a community being, we were not made to live by ourselves individually as we do not have stripes on our skin like the tigers. Family does not reject you like people outside. Family accepts your flaws and bad habits though they may not like them. Family is willing to lend a helping hand in inconvenience. Got family good, no family no good.

I want children, bring them up to stand up against the evil forces of the world(school, workplace, maybe government) and combat injustice. Mwahahahahaha.....
However I recall saying I do not wish to marry. So adoption is the only resort to have children to raise.

Now I pause and ponder, is it benificial for my children(if I really have) if they grew up in the absence of a mother's love?

Love Lost

Love Lost by Dr. Ng

Is it possible to relive

the moment we first met

(when eyes locked eyes in shimmering frisson)

now that the only time we are face to face

is when we make love?

The above is a poem from one of Dr. Ng's books- Postcards From Kluang.
This one caught my attention as I browsed through his poems, probably because it was short enough and hence might have been more understandable for me personally. Hahaha...

When I laid eyes on this poem the first thing that came to mind was marriage. Coincidentally, there are(have been) quite a few people whom I know to be getting into relationships while a few more, getting married.
So I had been thinking about marriage recently, the more I think the more skeptical I become.

No offense to those who want to build families, by all means go ahead and do it well.


What were(are) my thoughts? The chemistry that takes place between a boy and a girl who are interested in each other is just so difficult to be explained. In fact, I doubt that there is even a need to explain that chemistry. Having said that, I think that the kind of "feeling" so-to-say seems though so sweet can be so disgusting and dangerous. It is like two people playing with fire if both or either one is not mature enough to handle such a relationship.
If and when the relationship becomes a success and both parties wish(agree) to bring their courtship to a higher level, it may then bloom into marriage.

Early years of marriage can be so beautiful when all the man wants to see is his wife, and the woman her husband.
However after a period of time, marriage can turn so dull and burdensome that both husband and wife can seldom see eye to eye.

How terrible it might be if the words of the poet come true, where the only time lovers are face to face is when they make love. I can never imagine being in such a marriage, thus I believe that staying single is safer than married.

No marriage is perfect because no man is perfect.

For those who believe marriage is worth the sweat,

I sincerely wish you all the best.

love?

People are influenced by people and situations, so am I.
Having been through secondary school life for 5 years and NS for 3 months, I witnessed many boy-girl relationships blooming as well as breaking. And I don't deny that I am somehow affected and influenced.

Affected- I've seen various people having various attitudes toward BGR. Sometimes I respect those who can really put their partners above themselves yet without letting BGR affect their academical performances; but it makes me sick to see others regard BGR as a game, their partners are just a 'play thing' to them!
Being aware that there are MANY different types of girls out there, sometimes I have a hope of meeting one who is perfect for me; however sometimes I become discouraged because it seems like as if none of them are suitable.

Influenced- I think I've been having slight desires to be attached as well... Haha! Those little thoughts of being in a BGR creep into my mind when I see couples so happily in love. It's like so nice la...to have someone to confide in and share problems with. It's such a special relationship, it definitely is, with no secrets between each other.



Being in love? It seems so sweet... Even I myself feel like wanting to get married, especially when I look at wedding photos and family photos!
Well, I still wish to stay single because the commitment (some might call it burden) is no joking matter. I don't believe in divorce, so have to be very very very careful. But if ever I enter a BGR and walk into marriage with her, I want to make sure it is happy. And to make sure that it'll be happy then, I must keep myself pure now. In order to enjoy sex fully, the way God intended it to be enjoyed, one must keep his/her body pure before marriage. Otherwise the thrill and excitement wouldn't be as fun already.

Besides that, the apostle Paul said that men are to love their wives just as Christ loves the church. So a man must love his wife to the extend of being willing to sacrifice his life for her. Will I be able to stand the test? Will I prove myself worthy of her submission? Dying for a person, how many people are capable of that?

Oh, here are two teachings that I agree with very much!

1. Commitment comes before intimacy.
2. Learn to love your mother and sister(s) before even thinking that you are capable of loving a person as your wife.
   

Love Story

Hmmm... Falling in love... It seems so nice, like being in a fairy tale or a romantic movie.
Is it better to stay single or not?
Falling in love is more than just feelings, it comes with responsibilities too. I believe in commitment before intimacy.
So to stay single or not for me? Right now, I don't really need to worry about this. But in the future I might probably want to stay single. Haha... Not sure la..
Courtship, must think carefully before entering it because it leads to marriage.
Marriage, must think carefully before entering it because it is no turning back. Yes, I don't believe in divorce. Amen.