Money come!

If you've not read Asked and Given from The Pen Is Stronger, I received allowance from a hospital for the first time! Very excited about it.

I wanted to update my bank book last night but ended up bringing my passport by mistake, realised it only when I reached the deposit machine. Haha, but thanks to the convenience of internet banking I saw my current balance in the account from my computer. Gonna go update that bank book one of these days! And not gonna bring the wrong book.

Never had so much money in my life. Really never had so much money before. Better still, it's quoted in Singapore Dollar- more than 2 times greater than Malaysian Ringgit. Even better still, those money is under my name. Nobody feels sad about having more money. But on the contrary I feel more worried than happy actually. Just because I have never handle(relative to whatever I used to manage) large sums of finances before. Actually not very large sums, but a lot to me.

Now in this stage of my life, I am introduced to rental, transportation, groceries, fees, etc. Few chapters before now I could only be bothered by what I had in the wallet which just flowed in and out, during then there were parents around to make sure I didn't die. Now, there is a need to embrace something called responsibility in financial management.

I am afraid. I fear of failing to be a good steward.
Being good at managing personal finances doesn't mean saving and piling up as much as possible, it means USING money wisely.

Gotta discern, when to scrimp and save; and when to bless by spending.

I am afraid

oh this world!

Am feeling rather sad upon reading some Yahoo! News. A Japanese divorcee strangled her five-year-old daughter to death! Worse still, she told police that she used to put the helpless girl into a running washing machine. Here's the link: http://sg.news.yahoo.com/afp/20100714/tap-japan-crime-child-d1078a1.html


What is happening to this world? To mankind? Why is man ever deteriorating morally?
Sometimes I wonder why and how could people live in such darkness; thus next begin to wonder if I am any better.

I pity the child who had to endure all the abuse by her mother.

Actually, was it better for the five-year-old to live on or die?

There are, actually no correct answers.

Anyhow, this world needs a Saviour.

Cardiovascular system!

Blood symbolises life, it does. And it brings life, for without it we die.

I enjoy studying Biology, especially when it comes to the human body and its systems. To me, therefore, Human Bioscience which is one of the subjects I'm currently taking, rocks! Anatomy and Physiology is fun and interesting.

To me personally, Biology is more than just fun. But meaningful as I appreciate the beauty of God's creation- His art. How systems in the human body is set apart and integrated from and with each other, can't help but to say "Wow" to such work. Yet people believe their forefathers millions of years ago were single cells, stupid.

As far as Human Bioscience attracts me, it is not easy to study!

 The human cardiovascular system is an amazing work of God,why don't we leave it to the angels to study it? Haha...

Discipline is needed to study well. 
Bad news: discipline cannot be purchased;
Good news: discipline can be developed.

Cup of Tea

How I wish there were

a cup with tea in it

where anger and resentment

dissolved like sugar

You and I could drink

from it

with many gladness

as it poured out with forgiveness

from a pot, reaching little cups

We could share one

tasting what each gets

you in my shoes;

and I in yours,

there let be understanding

there goes the fears

here comes our friendship

But if ever there were

this cup of tea

would you drink

of it

with me?

© Joel Yap

More feelings

Having been living alone and knowing that the lone lifestyle will last a long time, I trust it is inevitable that people in such situations will start feeling lonely, since they live alone. Haha..
Yes, there are friends. But I hope all of us know how difficult it is to find real friends, true friends especially in today's society. Not trying to be pessimistic but this is the truth. Man has always been independable, from our forefathers', their forefathers' times till now and forever.

Family rocks. It is good to be with your family. Man is a community being, we were not made to live by ourselves individually as we do not have stripes on our skin like the tigers. Family does not reject you like people outside. Family accepts your flaws and bad habits though they may not like them. Family is willing to lend a helping hand in inconvenience. Got family good, no family no good.

I want children, bring them up to stand up against the evil forces of the world(school, workplace, maybe government) and combat injustice. Mwahahahahaha.....
However I recall saying I do not wish to marry. So adoption is the only resort to have children to raise.

Now I pause and ponder, is it benificial for my children(if I really have) if they grew up in the absence of a mother's love?